Author: Ciana

5.20.25 Fuck Everything And Run. False Evidence Appearing Real. What a great topic tonight, and I met with my sponsor before the meeting to go over my Step Four fear list. I fear everything and nothing at the same time. I mentally divide my fears into four categories: major, emotional, minor, and irrational. Welcome to Read more

5.19.25 Since losing Tyson, I am struggling with fear and heightened anxiety about the babies. It doesn’t help that Cricket and Pussy Galore have both gotten sick or injured recently. I convinced myself both times on the way to the vet that I would be leaving the vet clinic alone, yet again. I was so Read more

5.18.25 I stopped taking sleeping pills after the first week in rehab, after I had detoxed, attributing my nightmares and brain fog to them. I have several friends who are around the same time in their recovery as I am, and they tell me about their nightmares and strange dreams. There doesn’t seem to be Read more

5.17.25 Spring clean-up is underway in the secret garden. Thanks to FB Marketplace, my roommate scored a lawnmower for $20 a few weeks ago to clear out the trails and walking paths throughout the front yard. Today, a metal washing machine bin to make a fire pit for $20. Tomorrow I’m picking up a BBQ Read more