Author: Ciana

3.9.25 I’m excited for longer days, but I woke up so confused this morning. Was it supposed to be dark still at this time? What time is the sun going to set now? Do I feed the animals at the old time or the new time? So many questions! I didn’t feel settled until I Read more

3.8.25 Today marks 4 months sober! 4 months physically, mentally, and spiritually healthier and stronger than I was 4 months, 1 day ago when I was admitted to rehab. I hate remembering who I was because it opens a floodgate of emotions. The list could go on for pages: sadness, loneliness, hopelessness, remorse, guilt, self-pity. Read more

3.7.25 Happiness is a positive emotion and state of mind I’m getting to know. I used to expect to feel happiness because I was entitled to it and deserved it without lifting a finger. What a fucking idiot. I’m learning that my happiness is dependent on my choices and actions. When I choose to focus Read more

3.6.25 When I started in management, these types of seminars were very popular, and I attended quite a lot of them. Being straightforward, blunt, and matter-of-fact in management is not recommended; I’m great at all of these! I wish I had learned the tools and skills I am learning now in recovery when I started Read more