Author: Ciana

1.4.25 At my age, I don’t expect to make lots of new friends. Not because I don’t welcome or want new friendships, but because life and routine have settled in, and I don’t find myself in situations very often where I don’t already know most everyone around me. Until I went to rehab surrounded by Read more

1.3.25 Some days I struggle with what to write about, and other days I can’t put down my #2. Breaking old habits and creating a new lifestyle is really fucking difficult. I have to make a conscious effort every day to force myself out of my comfort zone and seek comfort in new places and Read more

1.2.25 I’m learning a lot about myself in counseling and feel more comfortable with my counselor every session. It is without a doubt emotionally draining, but dealing with old, ignored emotions isn’t supposed to be easy. It’s just necessary to make room for better emotions. I relate counseling to a hostage situation. But I’m not Read more

1.1.25 Getting clean isn’t the hard part. Being clean, vulnerable, unapologetically transparent, and learning to love yourself, that’s the challenge. My resolutions for 2025 are all focused on learning to love myself. For some that may seem like a very easy thing to do, but for those of us suffering from addiction, it’s very hard Read more