11.19.25
Today felt like one of those middle-of-the-road recovery days. Nothing dramatic, nothing earth-shattering, just me doing the next right thing and trying to stay steady. That’s a win.
I’ve got this mix of excitement and nerves about Kendall’s work trip to Oklahoma for the Futurity Championships. With the EHV-1 and EHV-4 outbreaks in Texas and Oklahoma, there’s a chance the whole thing gets called off. I really hope she still gets to go because it’s such a great opportunity for her. I prayed about it, and at this point all I can do is hand it over. Whatever happens is whatever happens.
Either way, tomorrow I get to pick up Louie’s and take dinner over to her house after work. Dinner with the kids is always one of my favorite things. They make the world feel lighter, even on days when it’s not. Plus Dylan can help me clean my gun.
Heather has been on my heart today too. She has been one of my mom’s best friends for as long as I can remember. Someone who lights up a room and gathers people without even trying. She’d been doing so well with treatment, and now she’s on hospice. No visitors. My mom recorded a goodbye video, and watching it was hard in a way I can’t fully put into words yet. It’s strange sitting with the knowing that someone so vibrant is fading. I’m trying not to dwell on it today, but it’s there.
Even with all of this swirling around, nerves, hope, grief, the normal stuff of life, I stayed present today. And sober. And honest. Some days that’s the whole victory.
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