2.20.25
Today was a big win for progress in my sobriety! It was the 30-day milestone with my sponsor, and she’s taken my training wheels off. Our daily check-ins are now weekly, I must remind myself this is the reward, not a punishment. I still get to see her twice a week and check in one morning a week. She’s always a phone call away if I need her in between. Lady J and I have moved my counseling from weekly to bi-weekly and re-evaluated my goals.
I have focused on keeping myself busy from when I wake up until I go to bed for the last 105 days. I knew I couldn’t carry on this way forever without burning out but didn’t have a plan to change it either. The universe decided for me. Both women told me the plan today and I listened without questioning them. I was taught in rehab to do as I’m told by those with more experience when it comes to my sobriety and have been very obedient. It’s surprisingly easy, probably because I’m scared shitless and desperate to stay sober.
I finished the day with my first sponsor/sponsee monthly dinner at my sponsor’s house. Her other sponsee’s also attend the weekly women’s meeting but I hadn’t gotten a chance to get to know them very well. I’m so thankful that my sponsor has taken me under her wing and welcomed me into their group. I have a sense of belonging with a small core group and am looking forward to growing with them.
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