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I woke up well-rested and ready to take on whatever challenges this week has in store for me. It rained last night, washing the humidity out of the valley, leaving a fresh, clean smell. Another reminder of the simple things in life I didn’t notice and lost sight of while I was in active addiction.
On Friday, I switched from the Vivitrol shot to Naltrexone. I was a little hesitant that my medication crutch wouldn’t be as effective, but it seems to be working just as well. I switched due to cost and have no concerns about trying to cheat by not taking the oral medication at this point in my recovery. I didn’t know what the fuck I was going to be like when I left rehab, so the shot was a precaution I no longer feel necessary for the price $250/month price difference.
The choice to take any medication to help with cravings is a very personal decision, and I support everyone, either way. I obviously chose to take medication to help with cravings and don’t have any regrets. I know it’s not a long-term crutch, but I’m taking baby steps. When I have a craving, the easiest way to get through it is to remind myself of the emotional and mental pain I caused myself and others. Not to mention the physical pain I caused myself. I just have to remember the empty shell of a person that alcohol caused me to become. It wasn’t fun anymore; it was a necessity, that is a problem. Then poof, the craving is gone!
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