Emotional Tug Of War

5.10.25

For too many years, whenever I was dealing with an emotional tug of war, my go-to was drinking alcohol. No matter the magnitude or insignificance of the matter, I was sure alcohol was the answer. I searched fearlessly for the answer at the bottom of a glass.

I’m grateful that my first instinct is no longer turning to alcohol, but it’s still a learning process. Like a Jedi mind trick, I remind myself to use my newfound tools and resources instead of letting things build up and bother me. When I find myself in one of these situations, I see the faces and hear the voices of my sober community telling me to pray on it and turn my troubles over to my HP.

Now, I’m not sure what else to do except wait for divine intervention to show me the path I’m supposed to walk without feeling regret or remorse that I make the wrong decision for the wrong reasons.