11.7.25
The Ninth Step Promises is a great topic for a meeting. Keeping myself grounded and remembering where I came from is the most important part of them for me.
“If we are painstaking about this phase of our development…” Painstaking. It can be painful, it can be miserable, it can be downright fucking brutal at times. I am my own worst enemy, and facing my demons takes real work — blood, sweat, and tears.
But it’s worth every damn minute of it.
The promises, or gifts, rewards, whatever you want to call them, have made my life more peaceful and serene, just like the Big Book says. I’m grateful for the relationship I’m building with my Higher Power, for the chance to repair the relationships with family and friends that I royally fucked up, and maybe most of all, for the happiness that comes from getting to truly know myself.
It’s not just peace. It’s joy. I’m learning what actually makes me feel alive, what matters, and what doesn’t. I get to see who I really am underneath all the wreckage I built. And for the first time, I actually like that person.
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