Author: Ciana

10.20.25 I’ve been frustrated with myself all day for not accomplishing anything. If I’m honest, I’m not even sure what it is I wanted to accomplish. I’ve just felt restless and irritated, like something inside me won’t settle. It’s uncomfortable not knowing why. The Big Book describes this feeling perfectly…restless, irritable, and discontented. It says… Read more

10.19.25 Yesterday, I got to spend time with my daughter. We finished the shadow box picture frames with keepsakes to remember her horses. It felt meaningful, like we were holding onto pieces of time that matter, and I got to be fully present with her. I also organized and cleaned the garage and got the… Read more

10.18.25 I was like a kid in a candy store last night when I got to the alumni meeting and saw a cute little photo setup with a hay bale and pumpkins. Lucky for me, my friend — who happens to be a photographer and cinematographer — was there too, so naturally, we had a… Read more

10.17.25 For so long, I hid behind a fog. Alcohol, drugs, distractions, anything to keep the feelings at bay. Pain, shame, fear, loneliness, and even happiness felt too heavy, too sharp, too dangerous. I thought that if I could just escape long enough, I’d survive. Now, the numb is gone. And everything I tried to… Read more