Author: Ciana

10.17.25 For so long, I hid behind a fog. Alcohol, drugs, distractions, anything to keep the feelings at bay. Pain, shame, fear, loneliness, and even happiness felt too heavy, too sharp, too dangerous. I thought that if I could just escape long enough, I’d survive. Now, the numb is gone. And everything I tried to Read more

10.16.25 Today was a busy day at work, and the meeting tonight hit right where I needed it to. It reminded me that no matter how packed my day gets, I have to start with the basics. When I don’t, I feel it. The unease, that low hum of discontent that follows me around. It’s Read more

10.15.25 I feel nostalgic today. I’ve been trying to convince myself it’s not self-pity, but even if there’s a pinch of that mixed in, I think I need to let it be. Sit in it. Absorb it. I miss moments of time from the past. Times I can’t go back to, and I’m okay with Read more

10.14.25 This week already feels long. There’s a lot going on at work, and while I love it because it keeps me busy, I’m also feeling pretty exhausted. I’m looking forward to the weekend when I can recharge and relax. I met with my sponsor today, and we read together. A friend asked what we Read more