Author: Ciana

10.25.25 I had to check the clock three times when I woke up this morning because it was so dark outside. The rain was coming down hard, and everything felt gray and still. Idaho winters sneak up like that. One day it’s crisp and bright, and the next it’s dark before dinner and raining when Read more

10.24.25 People ask me sometimes why I go to so many meetings. I don’t really know how to explain it in a way that makes sense to someone who hasn’t lived this way of life, but the truth is that it’s what I need. It’s part of my program and part of what keeps me Read more

10.23.25 There’s a lot on my mind today. For the first time in a while, it feels like my thoughts are spinning in a good way. Not from anxiety or restlessness, but from excitement and possibility. I’ve been thinking about an idea for a new website, something that could truly be of service to others Read more

10.22.25 When I feel that desperation and loneliness that nothing else can fill, I need to pray. This morning, when I prayed, I cried. Sometimes my emotions hit me so hard I don’t even know what to do with them. They come in waves of sadness, fear, frustration, exhaustion, and I can’t seem to find Read more