Author: Ciana

10.04.25 I spent a few hours with an old friend this morning, and it was so good to see her. It was also a powerful reminder that everyone has their struggles in life. I tend to put people on a pedestal and fall into self-pity, thinking everyone else has a “perfect” life. I was taken… Read more

10.03.25 I made it! This morning my anxiety was gone, and after some appointments I drove all by myself without any issues. Like a big girl. The trip was uneventful in the best way, and I even finished a book on Audible for my book club. When I got here, I felt a little guilt… Read more

10.02.25 Tonight I had two new firsts. I went to a completely sober bar, and I tried kava. The bar itself was such a nice surprise. It had a mellow and friendly vibe, the kind of place where people could actually talk and relax. There were couches and chairs for lounging if you didn’t want… Read more

10.02.25 I worked from home today because I feel scattered, tense, and anxious about this weekend trip. It’s just a four-hour drive to my brother’s house. Just. And yet I can’t stop spiraling. It’s been years since I’ve gone anywhere. Back when I was drinking, I would make excuses—“I have to take care of the… Read more