Author: Ciana
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Boredom and Balance in Sobriety
7.14.25 The topic in the meeting tonight was boredom and what to do when you’re bored to maintain your sobriety. I thought back over the last eight months, and I realized that in the beginning, everything was about routine. Just developing and sticking to a routine felt like survival. That structure was crucial to keeping Read more
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Nervous, Hopeful, Ready
7.13.25 Should I have gone to a meeting today? Probably. Yes. The answer is always yes to that question. But today was full, and I can see that I still did things that support my recovery. It was a busy day—dropping the sheps off at the doggy spa, then coming home to deep-clean the house Read more
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Earning My Own Forgiveness
7.12.25 I’ve been thinking about what AA teaches about forgiving yourself. It struck me that in the program, self-forgiveness isn’t really something I can just declare or force. It’s something that happens when I take action to live differently. When I did my Fourth Step, writing out my inventory, it was the first time I Read more
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No Burning Bush Required
7.11.25 I’ve come to realize I’m not waiting around for some big, spiritual moment to blow my mind. I’m not expecting a burning bush or some kind of holy thunderbolt. And honestly, I don’t need one. What I appreciate are the small miracles that come from being willing to connect with my Higher Power each Read more