Author: Ciana

3.11.25 Since my counseling appointment yesterday, I have been overwhelmed with sadness. We’re dealing with issues that are beyond frustrating because I don’t understand why I can’t get the fuck over my sadness they make me feel. I could talk and cry through the feelings enough to realize the root emotion is failure. I failed Read more

3.10.25 Last week I was invited to join a book club with a group of women in recovery. I only know a few of them, so it will be a great opportunity to get to know more women in recovery. Lucky for me, they only meet once a month on a night I don’t have Read more

3.9.25 I’m excited for longer days, but I woke up so confused this morning. Was it supposed to be dark still at this time? What time is the sun going to set now? Do I feed the animals at the old time or the new time? So many questions! I didn’t feel settled until I Read more

3.8.25 Today marks 4 months sober! 4 months physically, mentally, and spiritually healthier and stronger than I was 4 months, 1 day ago when I was admitted to rehab. I hate remembering who I was because it opens a floodgate of emotions. The list could go on for pages: sadness, loneliness, hopelessness, remorse, guilt, self-pity. Read more