7.5.25
Lately, I’ve been noticing in the rooms that a lot of people are struggling with what basically sounds like normalcy in sobriety. When nothing is actively going wrong, our alcoholic minds start waiting for the other shoe to drop. It’s like we don’t know how to live without some level of chaos.
When good things start happening—when our minds are clear, when we’re growing emotionally, mentally, and spiritually—there’s this old reflex to self-sabotage. In the past, addiction always showed up to ruin it all at this point. So when life feels okay for too long, it feels suspicious.
I’ve also been feeling like my recovery has gotten a little mundane lately. There’s nothing “wrong,” but I’m restless. I’m trying to be open-minded about new ideas to spice things up. I’ve been considering new meetings or recovery-related events I wouldn’t normally go to, even if they don’t sound particularly appealing. Anything to stay engaged and avoid feeling stagnant.
Today, I visited a friend who spent a week in Hawaii and went to AA meetings right on the beach. Then tonight at a late meeting, someone shared that they had attended a Spanish-speaking meeting even though they don’t speak Spanish. I thought both were great examples of doing something different just to stay connected. Maybe I’ll try a Zoom meeting in another country.
This is my recovery, and I am 100% responsible for making my program work. If I’m bored or too comfortable, it’s up to me to change things up and keep it interesting. It’s reassuring to remember that feeling stable doesn’t mean something is wrong—it just means life is finally steady. And if I start to drift into complacency, there are countless ways to bring fresh energy back into my sobriety.
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