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My sponsee homework for this week is to read and journal about this appendix.
Paragraph I – Spiritual experience or spiritual awakening = personality change great enough to want recovery. For me, this was caused by fear. Drinking became harder than the idea of recovery. I was scared shitless because alcohol was causing my health to deteriorate and my body to fail me. I was scared of losing my daughter, family, and friends. I was scared of losing my job and my way of supporting myself. It was time to wake up and make drastic changes if I wanted to live.
Paragraphs II & III – I did not have a spiritual experience that brought on a sudden change. My personality change came over the first two weeks in rehab after I had detoxed and stopped consuming alcohol. As the fog wore off, my mind became clearer every day, and I was able to see the damage I had caused during my active addiction. The realization that followed was very sudden; I didn’t want to continue killing myself.
Paragraph IV – I still don’t think I’ve had a huge spiritual experience or awakening. I think that through reading and listening during the past 4 months, my experience is of the educational variety, developing slowly. I am eager to learn more and more every day and become more spiritual.
Paragraph V – I do believe that my awareness of a higher power is a form of a spiritual experience I have daily.
Paragraph VI – Desperation for recovery allows me to be completely honest and open to not only spiritual, but all concepts, that may help me in my recovery. Being intolerant or belligerent will not get me anywhere in any aspect of life.
Paragraph VII – I whole heartedly believe this sentence and have it written on a 3×5 index card taped to my bathroom mirror. Willingness, honesty, and open-mindedness are the essentials of recovery.
Paragraph VIII – Contempt prior to investigation is an alcoholic’s worst enemy. It will not be my downfall. I will do my best to not be judgmental either.
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