Busy Week

4.14.25

This week is going to be busy with eight hours of Zoom training for my certification in addition to my everyday work duties. I’m nervous and have noticed my insecurities surfacing. I ran into a friend I hadn’t seen in years at the grocery store yesterday and found myself comparing what little I knew about their life to mine. I haven’t seen this friend in nearly a decade and know almost nothing about them or what they’ve been through over the years. Yet here I was, convincing myself it was all sunshine and rainbows to self-sabotage.

I woke up this morning determined to correct this train wreck in the making. I’m going to use my toolkit to keep my mind on task and set a steady pace, so I don’t let myself start the internal tornado at mach speed hellbent on self-destruction. I’m grateful for sobriety giving me a clear mind to recognize the early warning signs of character defects. I’m thankful for what I’ve learned in recovery so far to help me overcome my character defects. I heard something over the weekend that made me laugh. “The more I learn about my disease, the less I know.”