Category: Journal

08.25.25 13 years ago today, my ex-husband, Andrew, lost his battle with opioid addiction and took his own life. For years, I buried my grief in alcohol, unable—or unwilling—to face the pain. Through working the Twelve Steps and with the guidance of my therapist, I’ve finally begun to confront and process that grief instead of Read more

8.24.25 Yesterday I carried anxiety around like a weight. That nagging feeling that there isn’t enough time followed me everywhere. By this morning, it all came crashing down. I woke up, saw the time, and had a full-blown anxiety attack. Ugly crying and all. I beat myself up for watching a movie last night, for Read more

08.22.25 A lot of powerful things were shared tonight on the topic of Freedom: what I lost and what I gained. For so long, I thought drinking gave me freedom—freedom from pain, fear, and responsibility. In reality, I had lost my connections with family and friends, isolated myself, and convinced myself I was “free” because Read more

08.21.25 Today feels like one of those days where nothing seems to line up right. The saying, “If it was raining dicks, I’d get hit in the head with a tit,” pretty much sums it up. I’ve been running non-stop these past couple of weeks—between work and personal life, it feels like there’s always something Read more