Category: Journal

  • Fucking Feelings

    Fucking Feelings

    8.6.25 Since my last session with Lady J, I’ve been doing what she suggested — sitting with my feelings instead of running from them. It sounded so simple when she said it. But in practice, it has been anything but. After finishing my first set of Twelve Steps, I expected a sense of closure or… Read more

  • Daydreaming About Purpose and Naps

    Daydreaming About Purpose and Naps

    8.5.25 It’s only August 5th, and I’m already praying for the month to be over. Life feels heavy—there’s so much on my mind, and a quiet, lingering grief that seems to follow me everywhere. I’ve been talking to my higher power a lot, trying to understand what I’m supposed to be learning from all of… Read more

  • Quiet Battles

    Quiet Battles

    8.4.25 Today was a full day — I went into the office and got to see my coworkers, and then went to a meeting tonight and spent time with friends in recovery. After the meeting, I visited for a bit, and that made me happy too. It felt good to be around people, to feel… Read more

  • 12 Promises of Drinking

    12 Promises of Drinking

    8.3.25 I don’t have much to say today—for once. But something someone shared at the meeting gave me goosebumps. It was a twist on the 12 Promises from the Big Book. Instead of what we gain in sobriety, these were the “12 Promises of Drinking.” Are these extravagant promises? We think not! They are being… Read more