Category: Journal

7.1.25 My goal is to finish the 12 Steps by the end of the year. As I start the 9th Step at the beginning of July, I know I can accomplish this. There’s still a lot of work ahead, but I’m determined. I also know that the hard work doesn’t stop once I’m “done”—if anything, Read more

6.30.25 Where did June go? I had to count on my fingers yesterday to figure out how many months I’ve been sober. It’s funny how time moves—quietly, steadily—when you’re not chasing or running from something. Naturally, this triggered a relapse nightmare last night. They seem to go hand in hand. But it didn’t shake me. Read more

6.29.25 It’s not that I didn’t want to go to the women’s meeting this morning. It’s that I didn’t want to get ready and leave the house. Not because I was trying to isolate—just because it’s Sunday morning, and pajamas are so damn comfy on Sundays. I remembered it was a speaker meeting and how Read more

6.28.25 Being sober doesn’t mean there aren’t shit days. Life still lifes me. I have days when I don’t want to get out of bed. Days when my skin feels like it’s crawling because I can’t get out of my head or out of my own way. And sometimes it’s not even the whole day—just Read more