4.21.25
I cleaned the house Saturday and mentally prepared for this week. I’m excited and nervous about having family visit for the first time since I’ve been home from rehab. My cousin is on a traveling dance team, and they have a competition here in Boise this weekend. My mom will be staying with me in ‘her room’; my brother and his family, my aunt, and my cousins will be staying at either an Airbnb or a hotel.
Everyone gets here Thursday evening, but I will be going to my monthly sponsor dinner because I need to make sure that I am staying on task with my recovery responsibilities. Friday, we will have dinner after work, and then Saturday, after my meeting, I will join everyone to watch the dance competition. I have a safe word and will take my car everywhere; in case I feel overwhelmed.
I have mixed feelings about this. I hate that I can’t act like a normal fucking person and have to take these precautions but am also proud of myself for doing so. I’m trying to have faith and give myself grace.
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