2.8.25
I finished my blah day yesterday. I did not finish it strong, but I finished it sober. I easily could have poured a few drinks last night to make it more entertaining and numb myself. I easily could have thrown away all of the blood, sweat, and tears it took me to get through the last 91 days. Easily said fuck it and given up. Instead, I remembered that all I needed to do was lay my head down on the pillow and fall asleep to finish #92 sober. Everything was done for the day, and I did what I could in the present moment.
Today is a new day and I began it serenely with a positive attitude and high spirit. With my sponsor out of town and no meeting with her this morning, I focused on reading the big book and journaling. I ran some errands and then spent a few hours with a good friend supervising while they made a delicious ground turkey with white bean chili. I know a lot of amazing people who have all kinds of talents they’re rediscovering in sobriety, just like me. I did plan on going to the AA Valentine’s Day dance after dinner on my way home, but it felt refreshing to live in the moment and do what made me happiest.
I’m proud of my decision last night, feeling much better today and really excited to see my daughter tomorrow. I’ll take another 24!
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