5.9.25
Last night, I was listening to my book on the way to my birthday dinner at my sponsor’s house when the words hit me like a life brick to the face. I am obsessed with the need to feel loved and secure. It’s not that I want to please people, but I want people to be pleased with me. If people are pleased with me, I feel the love and security I crave.
When things don’t go my way, and when I can’t control situations, my pride and ego are stepped on. I must remember this and not confuse it with my feelings being hurt. This is when I need to use my toolkit to pause and assess if my feelings are truly hurt and why, or if my pride and ego are getting in the way.
Getting out of my own way is not as easy as it sounds. I am discovering that if I can put my pride and ego away, let thy will be done, instead of my will, I feel free and at peace. I don’t feel like people are hurting my feelings.
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