Old Triggers, New Tools

7.19.25

This morning, I sat on my couch waiting for family who had said they wanted to spend time with me before the graduation party for my niece. I had gotten up early to tidy up the house and water the lawn—wanting to make everything nice for their visit. Then I waited. And waited. And kept waiting.

In the past, this situation would have sent me spiraling. I would’ve stewed in anger and disappointment, definitely grabbed a drink to numb the hurt and frustration. But today was different. I said the Serenity Prayer. I reminded myself that expectations of others are just premeditated resentments. It’s not their job to meet my internal hopes—they’re just doing what they do.

So instead of blowing up or checking out emotionally, I went about my day with peace. They eventually showed up—just in time to leave for the party. That meant I missed the chance to make amends to one of them who’s flying out early tomorrow morning. I felt that sting of regret, but I also recognized that I tried. I made the effort. I showed up with intention and a willingness to connect. That’s all I can do until the next visit.

This program continues to teach me how to live differently, how to let go, and how to respond with grace instead of reaction. And for that, I’m deeply grateful.