Hello World!
Tough times don’t last, tough people do. – Robert Schuller
My name is Ciana ‘Ci’, and I am an alcoholic. I’ve struggled with addiction for most of my life. As a teenager I experimented with drugs and alcohol but was always able to stop using drugs without any significant withdrawals or impact. Alcohol on the other hand, was not so easy.
I’ve maintained sobriety in the past for long periods of time but always given in to ‘one drink’. For those of us suffering from addiction you know that one drink is too many, and one more is never enough. I wanted this time to be different, I needed this time to be different, because no matter how much I lied to myself and tried to lie to everyone else, I could see the effects in every aspect of my life.
So, I went to rehab! I started journaling as part of my daily routine in rehab. I kept thinking about something I heard there that really resonated with me. I watched a recording of Brene Brown who said, “One day you will tell your story of how you overcame what you went through, and it will be someone else’s survival guide.” I don’t know if this blog will become someone else’s survival guide or just my journal to reflect back on later, I will be stronger for it either way.
May you be sober and happy always! Ci
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New Normal
2.20.25 Today was a big win for progress in my sobriety! It was the 30-day milestone with my sponsor, and she’s taken my training wheels off. Our daily check-ins are now weekly, I must remind myself this is the reward, not a punishment. I still get to see her twice a week and check in…
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For The Best
2.19.25 This morning a friend told me she was putting her 16-year-old dog down later in the day. His quality of life is not good, and he is suffering. She knows it’s for the best, I know it’s for the best, everyone knows it’s for the best. What’s best doesn’t always make sense to our…
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Cranky Bitch
2.18.25 Somedays I have to allow myself to just be a cranky bitch. I slept well, in my bed for brownie points. I did have another disturbing dream that I relapsed but stayed pretty positive throughout the day. On my way home I continued listening to my book and know it’s helpful in my growth.…
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The Let Them Theory – Mel Robbins
2.17.25 This book was recommended in te meeting I attended yesterday morning. As a people pleaser, it interested me immediately and I bought it on Audible. With all the books I’m trying to read, and only so many hours in a day, listening to some of them in the car makes it easier to get…