Hello World!

Tough times don’t last, tough people do. – Robert Schuller

My name is Ciana ‘Ci’, and I am an alcoholic. I’ve struggled with addiction for most of my life. As a teenager I experimented with drugs and alcohol but was always able to stop using drugs without any significant withdrawals or impact. Alcohol on the other hand, was not so easy.

I’ve maintained sobriety in the past for long periods of time but always given in to ‘one drink’. For those of us suffering from addiction you know that one drink is too many, and one more is never enough. I wanted this time to be different, I needed this time to be different, because no matter how much I lied to myself and tried to lie to everyone else, I could see the effects in every aspect of my life.

So, I went to rehab! I started journaling as part of my daily routine in rehab. I kept thinking about something I heard there that really resonated with me. I watched a recording of Brene Brown who said, “One day you will tell your story of how you overcame what you went through, and it will be someone else’s survival guide.” I don’t know if this blog will become someone else’s survival guide or just my journal to reflect back on later, I will be stronger for it either way.

May you be sober and happy always! Ci

  • Daily Spiritual Workout

    09.29.25 For me, sobriety has to come first. If I don’t put it above everything else, I know I’ll lose it all. I’ve never liked the phrase “spiritually fit” because it feels like there’s no room left to grow. I don’t want to just maintain — I want to keep growing and improving. My sobriety

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  • Strength in Women

    09.28.25 Today felt like the perfect Sunday when I picture peace and connection to head into my work week. The women’s meeting this morning was packed, and the energy in the room was kinetic. We had an excellent speaker step in last minute, and she shared with such honesty and strength. It makes me so

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  • Ink and Recovery

    09.27.25 Part of my meditation reading stuck with me today: “God’s power in your life increases as your ability to understand His grace increases.” How true that is. I still don’t call my Higher Power “God.” I’m undecided on what to call it—I just know it exists. When I think back to the beginning of

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  • Chaos

    09.26.25 Ironically, I was just writing about how my new habits keep me grounded and set me up for the day…and then this morning I slept right through my alarm. It felt like a slap in the face. As expected, the panic and anxiety set in. I managed to get one quick reading in and

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