Hello World!

Tough times don’t last, tough people do. – Robert Schuller

My name is Ciana ‘Ci’, and I am an alcoholic. I’ve struggled with addiction for most of my life. As a teenager I experimented with drugs and alcohol but was always able to stop using drugs without any significant withdrawals or impact. Alcohol on the other hand, was not so easy.

I’ve maintained sobriety in the past for long periods of time but always given in to ‘one drink’. For those of us suffering from addiction you know that one drink is too many, and one more is never enough. I wanted this time to be different, I needed this time to be different, because no matter how much I lied to myself and tried to lie to everyone else, I could see the effects in every aspect of my life.

So, I went to rehab! I started journaling as part of my daily routine in rehab. I kept thinking about something I heard there that really resonated with me. I watched a recording of Brene Brown who said, “One day you will tell your story of how you overcame what you went through, and it will be someone else’s survival guide.” I don’t know if this blog will become someone else’s survival guide or just my journal to reflect back on later, I will be stronger for it either way.

May you be sober and happy always! Ci

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    1.14.25 I write my schedule on a whiteboard in my living room every night before bed and I smiled this morning when I read it. 5:30am – Happy Birthday! Get your sexy ass out of bed. I also woke up to read a happy birthday text from a friend who wanted to be the first…

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  • Cravings

    1.13.25 I have only really started noticing the correlation between full moons and my mood being even more extra in the last year or so. If you’ve been reading my blog, you know about my extra. I’m not high maintenance; I’m just a lot to handle mentally. Without a doubt, I could drive the sanest…

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  • Gratitude

    1.12.25 Gratitude has been a hot topic at meetings lately, probably because it’s the new year season. This year gratitude means more to me than it ever has before. Of course I’d had reasons to be grateful for in the past, but my first memory of gratitude is of being told that I needed to…

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