Hello World!
Tough times don’t last, tough people do. – Robert Schuller
My name is Ciana ‘Ci’, and I am an alcoholic. I’ve struggled with addiction for most of my life. As a teenager I experimented with drugs and alcohol but was always able to stop using drugs without any significant withdrawals or impact. Alcohol on the other hand, was not so easy.
I’ve maintained sobriety in the past for long periods of time but always given in to ‘one drink’. For those of us suffering from addiction you know that one drink is too many, and one more is never enough. I wanted this time to be different, I needed this time to be different, because no matter how much I lied to myself and tried to lie to everyone else, I could see the effects in every aspect of my life.
So, I went to rehab! I started journaling as part of my daily routine in rehab. I kept thinking about something I heard there that really resonated with me. I watched a recording of Brene Brown who said, “One day you will tell your story of how you overcame what you went through, and it will be someone else’s survival guide.” I don’t know if this blog will become someone else’s survival guide or just my journal to reflect back on later, I will be stronger for it either way.
May you be sober and happy always! Ci
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Another Day
3.22.25 I had a great dinner last night downtown with a great friend and their family to celebrate birthdays. Downtown Boise is very different at 6 pm and with no intention of getting drunk. It was refreshing, and it was even more refreshing to wake up this morning without a hangover. I read, made a…
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Changes
3.21.25 I automatically hear Tupac’s Changes playing in my head when I think of the word. Growing up in the 90’s was fucking awesome. Most of us were latchkey kids who watched MTV videos after school when we were bored because no shenanigans were going on and no trouble to cause. This was back when…
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Dinner with AD
3.20.25 As I’m settling into my new way of life, I’m also trying to make time for things I used to do and miss because I’ve been so focused on my sobriety and recovery. One of those things I have really missed is weekly dinners with my mother-in-law. She’s hard to put into words if…
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Prayer
3.19.25 Regardless of my past experiences and opinions, I am committed to taking advice and doing what I’m told works from others who have been in recovery much longer than I have been. I try everything and tailor them to fit my comfort level and personal style based on my beliefs. Praying is one of…