Hello World!

Tough times don’t last, tough people do. – Robert Schuller

My name is Ciana ‘Ci’, and I am an alcoholic. I’ve struggled with addiction for most of my life. As a teenager I experimented with drugs and alcohol but was always able to stop using drugs without any significant withdrawals or impact. Alcohol on the other hand, was not so easy.

I’ve maintained sobriety in the past for long periods of time but always given in to ‘one drink’. For those of us suffering from addiction you know that one drink is too many, and one more is never enough. I wanted this time to be different, I needed this time to be different, because no matter how much I lied to myself and tried to lie to everyone else, I could see the effects in every aspect of my life.

So, I went to rehab! I started journaling as part of my daily routine in rehab. I kept thinking about something I heard there that really resonated with me. I watched a recording of Brene Brown who said, “One day you will tell your story of how you overcame what you went through, and it will be someone else’s survival guide.” I don’t know if this blog will become someone else’s survival guide or just my journal to reflect back on later, I will be stronger for it either way.

May you be sober and happy always! Ci

  • Get in the Herd

    11.15.25 Isolation was one of the biggest red flags I watched for when I came home from rehab. I’d spent years perfecting being alone, and by the end of my drinking, I was basically a hermit with a liquor delivery schedule. In my mind, I thought my excuses were airtight. Looking back now, it’s pretty

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  • Listening and Loving

    11.14.25 I love days like today. Work was busy, but not overwhelming, and I felt like I genuinely helped a lot of people, which makes me happy. Feeling that my contribution is appreciated and valued is such a good feeling. It was also nail day. What girl doesn’t love getting her nails done? After work,

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  • Don’t Judge Me

    11.13.25 I know we’re “not supposed to judge others,” and I’ve gotten a lot less judgmental since getting humbled by admitting I’m an alcoholic and walking into AA. The rooms are full of people I never would’ve had compassion for before, yet somehow, through this fucked up mutual disease we share, I’ve formed a bond

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  • Self-Neglect Semi

    11.12.25 Did anyone get the license plate number of the semi that ran me over? Wow. I could feel the sickness creeping up for about a week, coming and going in waves, but by Sunday after the meeting, I got completely steamrolled. It’s been strange working from home all week, not going to meetings, not

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