Hello World!

Tough times don’t last, tough people do. – Robert Schuller

My name is Ciana ‘Ci’, and I am an alcoholic. I’ve struggled with addiction for most of my life. As a teenager I experimented with drugs and alcohol but was always able to stop using drugs without any significant withdrawals or impact. Alcohol on the other hand, was not so easy.

I’ve maintained sobriety in the past for long periods of time but always given in to ‘one drink’. For those of us suffering from addiction you know that one drink is too many, and one more is never enough. I wanted this time to be different, I needed this time to be different, because no matter how much I lied to myself and tried to lie to everyone else, I could see the effects in every aspect of my life.

So, I went to rehab! I started journaling as part of my daily routine in rehab. I kept thinking about something I heard there that really resonated with me. I watched a recording of Brene Brown who said, “One day you will tell your story of how you overcame what you went through, and it will be someone else’s survival guide.” I don’t know if this blog will become someone else’s survival guide or just my journal to reflect back on later, I will be stronger for it either way.

May you be sober and happy always! Ci

  • Peace And Quiet

    1.29.25 First, I know you are all dying to know…I still have not folded and put away the laundry mentioned earlier this week! A few friends joked that they wanted proof I had done it, hard stop – 100% NOT doing it because I’m stubborn. And I don’t want the spare bedroom to get lonely.

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  • Sorry, I’m Not Sorry

    1.28.25 I had to pause and think about whether or not to post this. I reminded myself that this is my soapbox and I’m glad I posted it. This is my journal where I document my thoughts and feelings to reflect back on. I know the struggle with sobriety is not easy to understand for

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  • I Love Mondays!

    1.27.25 Said no one ever. But I do have to say that waking up with a clear mind, well-rested, and hangover-free sure makes it a lot easier to get through any day. Especially Mondays. I sat at my desk wondering today if everyone else was hungover or just left their brains at home in weekend

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  • Kool-Aid

    1.26.25 I started the day by visiting Chevy while Kendall was still out of town. There’s nothing better than sloppy horse kisses! Then went to a women’s meeting and listened to a fantastic speaker whose story I related to so much it almost brought me to tears more than once. Then I got to relax

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