Hello World!
Tough times don’t last, tough people do. – Robert Schuller
My name is Ciana ‘Ci’, and I am an alcoholic. I’ve struggled with addiction for most of my life. As a teenager I experimented with drugs and alcohol but was always able to stop using drugs without any significant withdrawals or impact. Alcohol on the other hand, was not so easy.
I’ve maintained sobriety in the past for long periods of time but always given in to ‘one drink’. For those of us suffering from addiction you know that one drink is too many, and one more is never enough. I wanted this time to be different, I needed this time to be different, because no matter how much I lied to myself and tried to lie to everyone else, I could see the effects in every aspect of my life.
So, I went to rehab! I started journaling as part of my daily routine in rehab. I kept thinking about something I heard there that really resonated with me. I watched a recording of Brene Brown who said, “One day you will tell your story of how you overcame what you went through, and it will be someone else’s survival guide.” I don’t know if this blog will become someone else’s survival guide or just my journal to reflect back on later, I will be stronger for it either way.
May you be sober and happy always! Ci
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Valentine’s Day
2.12.25 I’m excited for Valentine’s Day this week. Historically I have hated all holidays, associating them with bad experiences. Through my recovery and sobriety, I’m allowing myself to be open to new ways of looking at things. I’m learning to let go of the negative associations, starting with a clean slate, finding happiness, and creating
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Third Times A Charm
2.11.25 I love the relationships I’m building with the women in my home group, including my sponsor. I enjoy the co-ed meetings and wouldn’t trade them for anything. But it’s nice to get together with just the women once a week and talk about women’s shit, shit we wouldn’t talk about with guys. I shared
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Sunshine And Rainbows
2.10.25 We’ve all heard the saying ‘sunshine and rainbows’, but never had I ever heard ‘blowjobs and rainbows’ until recently. And now I can’t stop saying it! After work tonight, I washed, dried, and folded all the sopping wet towels and blankets I used to wipe up the floors. I was thinking about how nice
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Life Goes On
2.9.25 The first time someone in rehab reminded me that life outside the walls of our safe place was going on without us I had to stop and think. Everything is all about me, how could it be possible for everyone else to carry on? What a cynical asshole! The cynical asshole is just a