Hello World!

Tough times don’t last, tough people do. – Robert Schuller

My name is Ciana ‘Ci’, and I am an alcoholic. I’ve struggled with addiction for most of my life. As a teenager I experimented with drugs and alcohol but was always able to stop using drugs without any significant withdrawals or impact. Alcohol on the other hand, was not so easy.

I’ve maintained sobriety in the past for long periods of time but always given in to ‘one drink’. For those of us suffering from addiction you know that one drink is too many, and one more is never enough. I wanted this time to be different, I needed this time to be different, because no matter how much I lied to myself and tried to lie to everyone else, I could see the effects in every aspect of my life.

So, I went to rehab! I started journaling as part of my daily routine in rehab. I kept thinking about something I heard there that really resonated with me. I watched a recording of Brene Brown who said, “One day you will tell your story of how you overcame what you went through, and it will be someone else’s survival guide.” I don’t know if this blog will become someone else’s survival guide or just my journal to reflect back on later, I will be stronger for it either way.

May you be sober and happy always! Ci

  • Sobriety Time Of The Month

    2.24.25 I’m starting to think my sobriety has a menstrual cycle. The past couple of days have definitely been its time of the month. I’ve decided to throw chocolate at it, give it TLC, and allow extra grace to get through the emotional whirlwind and back to normal. Whatever the fuck normal is. My car…

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  • Car Trouble

    2.23.25 I was up at 4am this morning for absolutely no reason. After reading and journaling I decided to take a nap. When I woke up again at 8am I felt great, and it was time to get things done. After a quick trip to Winco, I started chili in the crock pot, made apricot…

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  • Girl Time!

    2.22.25 I had my weekly meeting with my sponsor this morning to work on my steps. Reading the big book out loud with another person allows me to pick up on information that I missed when I read it on my own. This afternoon I got to spend time with some girlfriends. We played with…

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  • Statistics

    2.21.25 My heart breaks for the alcoholics still suffering. Before going to rehab I didn’t understand that alcoholism is a disease. I thought I was just weak and lacked willpower, I felt alone. Alcoholism is the only incurable disease, luckily for me and others who are afflicted by the disease, it is treatable and manageable.…

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