Prayer

3.19.25

Regardless of my past experiences and opinions, I am committed to taking advice and doing what I’m told works from others who have been in recovery much longer than I have been. I try everything and tailor them to fit my comfort level and personal style based on my beliefs.

Praying is one of the practices I am definitely taking baby steps towards. I’m still not 100% sure what or who I am praying to, other than a power I know is greater than me. I’m not comfortable prying on my knees yet. I get the meaning behind it, blah, blah. What can I say, I’m a stubborn bitch who needs to feel in control. I’m a Capricorn alcoholic, damn it!

I am making progress with prayer. I say the same prayers every morning when I wake up because they make me feel good. Throughout the day, I speak to my Higher Power more and more, which I consider prayer. Sometimes it’s while I’m getting ready for the day, driving, working, cooking, or in bed. The prayers, or one-sided conversations make me feel closer to my Higher Power and comfortable when I need it the most.

The small and nice things that happen randomly I used to call coincidences, I now know are blessings my Higher Power provides me. It’s always been looking out for me, I just didn’t realize or understand. The greatest gifts my Higher Power gives me are love and patience. Total submission is a work in progress and neither of us is in a rush to get there because it will happen when it’s supposed to.