5.8.25
How did I do it? H.O.W. Honesty, Open-mindedness, and Willingness is how I did it. Why? I did it because I had reached the point of no return. I was completely powerless over alcohol and my life was an unmanageable shitshow. Katy Perry had nothing on me.
I have learned a lot about myself and my disease over the past six months, but it’s just the beginning. The more I know, the more information I crave. At 44 years old, I feel like the blinds over my eyes and mind have been lifted. I keep thinking about hearing that our mental and emotional growth stops at the age we start our drinking careers. I think there is some truth to this, but I’d like to read more research about it when I finish reading Attached. I only read one research book at a time because I have so many other books I’m reading at the same time, and I can’t keep them all straight. The big book, daily devotional books, book club book, the list goes on and on.
Back to today. I am very humbled and proud of this milestone. I struggle with milestone birthdays because I beat myself up for not getting sober earlier in life. I envy the people who are so much younger, yet so much further in their sobriety than I am. Today, I am going to focus on giving myself grace and on my many blessings.
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