Switch It Up

1.10.25

I’ve been restless and struggling the past week with my schedule. It’s just not working for me. I woke up reminding myself that this is my recovery and the key is doing what works for me.

My morning reading time hasn’t been something I look forward to and the words aren’t resonating. I have to read the same thing over and over again but still don’t remember any of it even ten minutes later. So fuck it! I’m switching it up and going to try reading before bed instead.

When I have been reading in the mornings my mind has been wandering towards writing and I have found myself grabbing my notebook and trusty #2. So fuck it! I’m switching it up and going to try writing in the mornings instead.

I’m writing this more to myself than anyone else because I need to know it’s ok. It’s not a failure to switch it up so the restlessness subsides and I’m getting the most out of these therapeutic exercises I can. It would be a failure to force myself to continue with a schedule that isn’t helping my recovery because it’s ‘the schedule’ damnit. It’s time to wipe off that whiteboard and switch it up.