Author: Ciana

  • A New Spark of Purpose

    A New Spark of Purpose

    10.23.25 There’s a lot on my mind today. For the first time in a while, it feels like my thoughts are spinning in a good way. Not from anxiety or restlessness, but from excitement and possibility. I’ve been thinking about an idea for a new website, something that could truly be of service to others Read more

  • Prayer

    Prayer

    10.22.25 When I feel that desperation and loneliness that nothing else can fill, I need to pray. This morning, when I prayed, I cried. Sometimes my emotions hit me so hard I don’t even know what to do with them. They come in waves of sadness, fear, frustration, exhaustion, and I can’t seem to find Read more

  • Suck It Up, Buttercup

    Suck It Up, Buttercup

    10.21.25 I realized tonight that I needed to have a conversation with myself about my mood. For the last couple of weeks, I’ve been cranky and irritable, telling myself that if things would just get back to “normal,” I’d start to feel better. But the truth is, there is no such thing as normal. Life Read more

  • Restlessness Can Fuck Off

    Restlessness Can Fuck Off

    10.20.25 I’ve been frustrated with myself all day for not accomplishing anything. If I’m honest, I’m not even sure what it is I wanted to accomplish. I’ve just felt restless and irritated, like something inside me won’t settle. It’s uncomfortable not knowing why. The Big Book describes this feeling perfectly…restless, irritable, and discontented. It says Read more