Author: Ciana

3.29.25 I was reminded of how beautiful the state of Idaho is today. I was awake long before the sun and took a short drive north to a hot spring. The weather was overcast, and deer and elk were everywhere. We were lucky to have the hot spring pool all to ourselves. It rained on… Read more

3.28.25 My beautiful mama is 70 years old today. I started thinking about how to describe her best and the impact she has on my life. It made my eyes leak and my heart full. Even if she did say the most fucked up thing, I’ve ever heard the other day. She reminded me that… Read more

3.27.25 I wish I didn’t kill so many brain cells with alcohol. The ones I have left hurt after today. It was a great day at work, I had to buckle up the toolbelt and use the tools and skills I’m learning in recovery at work. Instead of reacting I paused and looked at the… Read more

3.26.25 Somedays are just more emotional than others. Now I don’t reach for the bottle. Instead, I reach for words in a book, prayer, podcast or a song searching for the instant comfort that alcohol used to bring me. These things do make me feel better but it’s different and I’m still getting used to… Read more