Author: Ciana

01.25.26 Today cracked my heart wide open. My baby is 21, and I don’t know how that’s real. There’s joy in it, but there’s also this deep, almost aching awareness of how close I came to missing all of it. How easily this day could’ve been one I wasn’t part of. The women’s meeting this Read more

01.18.26 I’ve been spending way too much time in my again head lately. Circling the same thoughts. Replaying, predicting, controlling, rehearsing. Trying to make outcomes feel safer before they even exist. It’s exhausting. And shocking…it’s not working. This shows me that I need Step One. Not because I’m failing but because I’m human. Step One Read more

01.12.26 I am really good at making things completely irrational in my head. Like, really, really good. Friday night I was reminded that not everything is about me, and that realization landed harder than I expected. You’d think it would have snapped me out of the funk I feel coming into my birthday week, but Read more

1.4.26 In Bill’s Story on page 12 it talks about the foundation of sobriety being complete willingness. Then in Into Action on page 75, it says to ask ourselves during meditation Have we skimped on the cement poured into the foundation? That sent my mind straight to willingness. Specifically, the willingness I came into AA Read more