Author: Ciana

02.08.26 I’m making a conscious effort to actually practice the principles of this program in all my affairs. Not just fucking talk about them like a motivational poster. And shocker…when I use the tools, life feels a whole lot less like a self-inflicted emergency. This week I keep circling back to one of the biggest Read more

02.02.26 I noticed something about myself recently that made me laugh and cringe at the same time. I have this habit of “saving” things for later. Candy, lotion, gift cards, little treats, treasures and trinkets. Because I think there will be a better time to enjoy them or because some part of me believes I Read more

01.25.26 Today cracked my heart wide open. My baby is 21, and I don’t know how that’s real. There’s joy in it, but there’s also this deep, almost aching awareness of how close I came to missing all of it. How easily this day could’ve been one I wasn’t part of. The women’s meeting this Read more

01.18.26 I’ve been spending way too much time in my again head lately. Circling the same thoughts. Replaying, predicting, controlling, rehearsing. Trying to make outcomes feel safer before they even exist. It’s exhausting. And shocking…it’s not working. This shows me that I need Step One. Not because I’m failing but because I’m human. Step One Read more