Author: Ciana

01.12.26 I am really good at making things completely irrational in my head. Like, really, really good. Friday night I was reminded that not everything is about me, and that realization landed harder than I expected. You’d think it would have snapped me out of the funk I feel coming into my birthday week, but Read more

1.4.26 In Bill’s Story on page 12 it talks about the foundation of sobriety being complete willingness. Then in Into Action on page 75, it says to ask ourselves during meditation Have we skimped on the cement poured into the foundation? That sent my mind straight to willingness. Specifically, the willingness I came into AA Read more

12.29.25 I survived Christmas! And not in the dramatic, barely holding it together way, actually sober, present, and awake. In 2024, I was fresh out of rehab and still relearning how to function in the real world, so I count this as my first real sober holiday season. I didn’t die and I didn’t implode. Read more

12.21.25 “How are you?” I always answer that one on autopilot. Great. Good. Doing well. Tonight, sitting in a meeting, I stopped and asked myself if that’s true. Am I okay? And if I’m not—am I okay with that? Can I sit in the discomfort without trying to outrun it, fix it, explain it, or Read more