Author: Ciana

1.3.25 Some days I struggle with what to write about, and other days I can’t put down my #2. Breaking old habits and creating a new lifestyle is really fucking difficult. I have to make a conscious effort every day to force myself out of my comfort zone and seek comfort in new places and… Read more

1.2.25 I’m learning a lot about myself in counseling and feel more comfortable with my counselor every session. It is without a doubt emotionally draining, but dealing with old, ignored emotions isn’t supposed to be easy. It’s just necessary to make room for better emotions. I relate counseling to a hostage situation. But I’m not… Read more

1.1.25 Getting clean isn’t the hard part. Being clean, vulnerable, unapologetically transparent, and learning to love yourself, that’s the challenge. My resolutions for 2025 are all focused on learning to love myself. For some that may seem like a very easy thing to do, but for those of us suffering from addiction, it’s very hard… Read more

12.31.24 I ended up with a shitty sinus infection and my body aches so tonight is very livingroomish. I really need to be more open minded though, the medieval party was not too far off. I watched Gladiator, and Gladiator II, and I’m convinced that Russell Crowe and Paul Mescal would approve of me having… Read more