Author: Ciana

11.7.25 The Ninth Step Promises is a great topic for a meeting. Keeping myself grounded and remembering where I came from is the most important part of them for me. “If we are painstaking about this phase of our development…” Painstaking. It can be painful, it can be miserable, it can be downright fucking brutal Read more

11.6.25 I didn’t make time for my daily readings this morning, and as I read them tonight, two things stand out. Humility and faith. Humility in sobriety? No problem. I know I can’t recover on my own. That was tried and proven to fail. I need my Higher Power and band of misfits. It’s the Read more

11.5.25 Lately, writing has felt heavier than usual. My thoughts keep looping, and I can’t tell if it’s the time change, the gray weather, or just emotional exhaustion catching up to me. Last night, my dreams were wild. In one, I was making a small sacrifice at work. Something I thought I had to do Read more

11.3.25 I’ve spent years weighed down by shame for choosing to drink instead of living the life I wanted to. I let alcohol run my life, and I let my dreams and aspirations slip by. I used to replay all of it in my head, dwelling on what I didn’t do, what I wasted, what Read more