Category: Journal

6.2.25 Ironically, self-compassion isn’t even in the dictionary. I had to look up the definition of compassion instead: “sympathetic consciousness of others’ distress together with a desire to alleviate it.” Psychologist Kristin Neff defines self-compassion as being made up of three key elements: self-kindness, common humanity, and mindfulness. Book club was wonderful as always. I… Read more

6.1.25 Today was a hard one. I had my first full-blown panic attack since starting recovery. Yesterday, while I was with my sponsor, we talked about plans for the weekend. I mentioned that my best friend’s daughter’s bridal shower was today. She reminded me that emotional milestones—like finishing Step Five—can be triggers. She offered to… Read more

5.31.25 I finished my Fifth Step today with my sponsor. The experience was truly sublime. I came prepared—with spreadsheets, printouts, lists, and notes. You name it, I thought of it. Organization helps me feel in control, especially when diving into something as personal and emotionally charged as this. Against my nature, I refrained from bringing… Read more

5.30.25 What a fantastic topic at the alumni meeting tonight. In active addiction, showing up was a chore that I despised. On the rare occasion that I showed up to a function or event sober, I was looking for the alcohol first, and then the quickest exit from the minute I walked in the door,… Read more