Category: Journal

04.11.26 The topic at a meeting the other night was obsession, and it brought me back to a passage from A Vision For You in the Big Book that describes what drinking becomes for people like me. Not just a social release, but something far darker in its final stage. For most people, drinking is… Read more

04.05.26 I didn’t write last weekend, and I felt a little guilty about it, but I needed a reset. Life has just been…lifey. Not bad, not falling apart, just shifting. Moving. Changing. Change used to wreck me. I’d go straight to worst-case scenario, let anxiety take over, convince myself everything was about to fall apart.… Read more

03.24.26 I’ve been in a mood lately. Not loud and explosive. Just a steady, grinding irritation humming under everything. Restless, discontent, easily thrown off by things that don’t fucking matter. The kind of state AA describes perfectly. When I’m not spiritually right, I end up irritable, restless, and discontent as a baseline. There’s no major… Read more

03.15.26 When people talk about trusting in a Power greater than themselves, it sounds good on paper. It’s easy to nod along when life is smooth. But when something inside you is hurting, the deep kind of hurt that sits in your chest and won’t move, faith suddenly feels like a lot to ask. Part… Read more