Category: Journal

  • You’re Going on My 4th Step

    You’re Going on My 4th Step

    Ciana

    03.08.26 Lately I’ve been doing a lot of Fourth Step work. The whole reason for it is fear, looking honestly at the things that drive it and the ways it has shaped my thinking and behavior. It isn’t always comfortable to dig that deep, but I know it’s necessary if I want to stay spiritually… Read more

  • Held When I Need It Most

    Held When I Need It Most

    Ciana

    02.23.26 It feels like a lifetime has gone by since I wrote last. It’s been a long and emotional week, but I’ve decided to write about the most impactful part of it. Friday morning shook me in a way I didn’t see coming. I got a group text saying a close friend’s partner was in… Read more

  • Faith Over Fear

    Faith Over Fear

    Ciana

    02.15.26 Lately I’ve been circling around a few heavy questions: Is my faith strong enough? Am I even working this program the right way? Do I have enough built up spiritually and emotionally to handle stepping outside the comfort zone I’ve worked so hard to build? It took everything in me to expand that bubble… Read more

  • Letting Go Like I Mean It

    Letting Go Like I Mean It

    Ciana

    02.08.26 I’m making a conscious effort to actually practice the principles of this program in all my affairs. Not just fucking talk about them like a motivational poster. And shocker…when I use the tools, life feels a whole lot less like a self-inflicted emergency. This week I keep circling back to one of the biggest… Read more