Hello World!
Tough times don’t last, tough people do. – Robert Schuller
My name is Ciana ‘Ci’, and I am an alcoholic. I’ve struggled with addiction for most of my life. As a teenager I experimented with drugs and alcohol but was always able to stop using drugs without any significant withdrawals or impact. Alcohol on the other hand, was not so easy.
I’ve maintained sobriety in the past for long periods of time but always given in to ‘one drink’. For those of us suffering from addiction you know that one drink is too many, and one more is never enough. I wanted this time to be different, I needed this time to be different, because no matter how much I lied to myself and tried to lie to everyone else, I could see the effects in every aspect of my life.
So, I went to rehab! I started journaling as part of my daily routine in rehab. I kept thinking about something I heard there that really resonated with me. I watched a recording of Brene Brown who said, “One day you will tell your story of how you overcame what you went through, and it will be someone else’s survival guide.” I don’t know if this blog will become someone else’s survival guide or just my journal to reflect back on later, I will be stronger for it either way.
May you be sober and happy always! Ci
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Horse Therapy
3.2.25 Sunday funday! I met my sister-in-law for coffee and questionably expired coffee creamer. We decided it would either be fine or a really good instant diet. I love our visits when she is in town; FaceTime dates are nice, but they aren’t the same. My women’s meeting today was at the new location. I’m…
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Mission: Relaxation
3.1.25 I had plans to go fishing and stay in a cabin for the night that had to be rescheduled. Rescheduled, not cancelled. Big difference because I will go soon. After my sponsor meeting and finishing step one, I braved Costco for Queenie girl’s prescription and headed home $225 later. I managed to marinate some…
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Spring
2.28.25 To say the last six months have been long is an understatement. It feels like a lifetime since my downward spiral picked up the pace and quickly hit rock bottom. There have been so many emotions to feel and express. The first couple of months were full of pain and despair. I was hopeless.…
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Rule 62
2.27.25 “Don’t Take Yourself So Damn Seriously.” I try to practice humility and make light of most situations. Laughter is good for the soul, and I constantly amaze myself by the ridiculous things I do. Someone is bound to witness them, so I might as well beat them to it and see the humor instead…