Hello World!
Tough times don’t last, tough people do. – Robert Schuller
My name is Ciana ‘Ci’, and I am an alcoholic. I’ve struggled with addiction for most of my life. As a teenager I experimented with drugs and alcohol but was always able to stop using drugs without any significant withdrawals or impact. Alcohol on the other hand, was not so easy.
I’ve maintained sobriety in the past for long periods of time but always given in to ‘one drink’. For those of us suffering from addiction you know that one drink is too many, and one more is never enough. I wanted this time to be different, I needed this time to be different, because no matter how much I lied to myself and tried to lie to everyone else, I could see the effects in every aspect of my life.
So, I went to rehab! I started journaling as part of my daily routine in rehab. I kept thinking about something I heard there that really resonated with me. I watched a recording of Brene Brown who said, “One day you will tell your story of how you overcame what you went through, and it will be someone else’s survival guide.” I don’t know if this blog will become someone else’s survival guide or just my journal to reflect back on later, I will be stronger for it either way.
May you be sober and happy always! Ci
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Still Clueless
10.11.25 There’s nothing better than a date with a good friend at a good restaurant. This week, through the daily readings, I’ve felt like there’s a lesson about the spiritual axiom they keep referencing that I’m missing — and it’s been bothering me that I can’t quite see what it is. Fear and anger come
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Full Circle in the Fall
10.10.25 I love this time of year when the air turns brisk and the colors of fall make me smile. There’s something about the way the leaves change that reminds me life keeps moving — letting go, renewing, transforming. I find comfort in the little things that come with the season: slipping into warm, cozy
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Sharing in Safe Places
10.09.25 I look forward to our monthly dinners with my sponsor and sponsee sisters. We always have an informal meeting afterward, and tonight I found myself wondering why it’s so easy to share with these women, yet so hard to share at meetings. I feel like I should share more often, but when I do,
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Moments of Connection
10.08.25 There was such a great turnout for the meeting tonight. It was rejuvenating to see so many new faces—not even newcomers, just people who don’t usually attend this meeting showing up. I love the Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions because it gives such deep additional insight into the Big Book. Several people shared that