Category: Journal

1.2.25 I’m learning a lot about myself in counseling and feel more comfortable with my counselor every session. It is without a doubt emotionally draining, but dealing with old, ignored emotions isn’t supposed to be easy. It’s just necessary to make room for better emotions. I relate counseling to a hostage situation. But I’m not… Read more

1.1.25 Getting clean isn’t the hard part. Being clean, vulnerable, unapologetically transparent, and learning to love yourself, that’s the challenge. My resolutions for 2025 are all focused on learning to love myself. For some that may seem like a very easy thing to do, but for those of us suffering from addiction, it’s very hard… Read more

12.31.24 I ended up with a shitty sinus infection and my body aches so tonight is very livingroomish. I really need to be more open minded though, the medieval party was not too far off. I watched Gladiator, and Gladiator II, and I’m convinced that Russell Crowe and Paul Mescal would approve of me having… Read more

12.30.24 Tomorrow will be my first sober NYE in a very long time. I am attending a women’s meeting early in the evening, but not quite sure what else to do. I can’t even decide if I want to do ANYTHING. I’ve spent so long isolating myself and drinking alone that getting out and doing… Read more