Hello World!
Tough times don’t last, tough people do. – Robert Schuller
My name is Ciana ‘Ci’, and I am an alcoholic. I’ve struggled with addiction for most of my life. As a teenager I experimented with drugs and alcohol but was always able to stop using drugs without any significant withdrawals or impact. Alcohol on the other hand, was not so easy.
I’ve maintained sobriety in the past for long periods of time but always given in to ‘one drink’. For those of us suffering from addiction you know that one drink is too many, and one more is never enough. I wanted this time to be different, I needed this time to be different, because no matter how much I lied to myself and tried to lie to everyone else, I could see the effects in every aspect of my life.
So, I went to rehab! I started journaling as part of my daily routine in rehab. I kept thinking about something I heard there that really resonated with me. I watched a recording of Brene Brown who said, “One day you will tell your story of how you overcame what you went through, and it will be someone else’s survival guide.” I don’t know if this blog will become someone else’s survival guide or just my journal to reflect back on later, I will be stronger for it either way.
May you be sober and happy always! Ci
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Seeing Clearly
10.07.25 Today my boss asked a question for our next Department Planning meeting. “If you could have a superpower, what would it be? And why?” Not too long ago, I would have come up with something funny and moved on without giving it any real thought. But today, I really thought about it. If I
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Letting Go or Losing My Mind
10.06.25 Letting go has been on my mind a lot lately. I can’t control other people, places, or things — no matter how much I want to. I’m getting better at reminding myself of this and not wasting energy trying to. But I still spend a lot of time wondering why people do what they
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Back Home, Back to Basics
10.05.25 I made it home, and thankfully the trip was just as uneventful as the drive to Nevada. It feels good to be back and settle into my normal routine again. I think the one who missed me most was Poppy—but I expected that. Everything went smoothly at home while I was gone. The last
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Life is Lifey
10.04.25 I spent a few hours with an old friend this morning, and it was so good to see her. It was also a powerful reminder that everyone has their struggles in life. I tend to put people on a pedestal and fall into self-pity, thinking everyone else has a “perfect” life. I was taken