Hello World!
Tough times don’t last, tough people do. – Robert Schuller
My name is Ciana ‘Ci’, and I am an alcoholic. I’ve struggled with addiction for most of my life. As a teenager I experimented with drugs and alcohol but was always able to stop using drugs without any significant withdrawals or impact. Alcohol on the other hand, was not so easy.
I’ve maintained sobriety in the past for long periods of time but always given in to ‘one drink’. For those of us suffering from addiction you know that one drink is too many, and one more is never enough. I wanted this time to be different, I needed this time to be different, because no matter how much I lied to myself and tried to lie to everyone else, I could see the effects in every aspect of my life.
So, I went to rehab! I started journaling as part of my daily routine in rehab. I kept thinking about something I heard there that really resonated with me. I watched a recording of Brene Brown who said, “One day you will tell your story of how you overcame what you went through, and it will be someone else’s survival guide.” I don’t know if this blog will become someone else’s survival guide or just my journal to reflect back on later, I will be stronger for it either way.
May you be sober and happy always! Ci
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Back Home, Back to Basics
10.05.25 I made it home, and thankfully the trip was just as uneventful as the drive to Nevada. It feels good to be back and settle into my normal routine again. I think the one who missed me most was Poppy—but I expected that. Everything went smoothly at home while I was gone. The last
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Life is Lifey
10.04.25 I spent a few hours with an old friend this morning, and it was so good to see her. It was also a powerful reminder that everyone has their struggles in life. I tend to put people on a pedestal and fall into self-pity, thinking everyone else has a “perfect” life. I was taken
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Showing Up Sober
10.03.25 I made it! This morning my anxiety was gone, and after some appointments I drove all by myself without any issues. Like a big girl. The trip was uneventful in the best way, and I even finished a book on Audible for my book club. When I got here, I felt a little guilt
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Cherry Popped
10.02.25 Tonight I had two new firsts. I went to a completely sober bar, and I tried kava. The bar itself was such a nice surprise. It had a mellow and friendly vibe, the kind of place where people could actually talk and relax. There were couches and chairs for lounging if you didn’t want