Category: Journal

1.6.25 I woke up in a fit of terror at 3:30am this morning. I practically jumped out of bed covered in sweat, shaking, and frantically trying to figure out what was real and what wasn’t. I was hoping and praying that it was a dream. I’ve heard about relapse dreams but thought they were over… Read more

1.5.25 I am allowed to be imperfect and confident at the same time. I feel confident in some aspects of life more than others, and hyper focus on the areas I don’t feel confident in. Telling myself that I’m not allowed to feel confident in these areas until they are perfect. I’ve decided that’s bullshit.… Read more

1.4.25 At my age, I don’t expect to make lots of new friends. Not because I don’t welcome or want new friendships, but because life and routine have settled in, and I don’t find myself in situations very often where I don’t already know most everyone around me. Until I went to rehab surrounded by… Read more

1.3.25 Some days I struggle with what to write about, and other days I can’t put down my #2. Breaking old habits and creating a new lifestyle is really fucking difficult. I have to make a conscious effort every day to force myself out of my comfort zone and seek comfort in new places and… Read more